You know, life is a fascinating thing. It may not seem this way to us as we go about our everyday lives, living what may be average or boring existances. Like me, going to school every day. I wake up, I come, I sit, I learn, I take many (MANY) notes, and then I leave. It's boring, but at the same time extremely special.
Every time I take a breath, I am living. And living is a magnificent thing. Lately I've been seeing this strange side of life - the side where I actually notice little things that go on, and am amazed.
A father playing with his child. A frustrated woman carrying a briefcase and talking on the phone. Birds chirping. Cars driving by. Dirty dishes. The feeling of finishing a fantastic book. The familiar smell of home. The sound your pencil makes when it scratches the surface of your paper. The rush of seeing that one special person who makes your insides flip and your heart ache and you still don't know why. All of these things - the sounds, the smells, the color - it's all life, and I feel like it has a lot more meaning than many of us realize. There's a bigger picture that I'm trying hard to see. There are connections that haven't been made, and I want to put the puzzle together. Everyone has things that are important to them, and it's all so special that we get to witness this life.
Every time we take a breath, we are one second older, one second closer to dying. I've never been able to imagine myself dying. Maybe it's beacause I don't believe I'll ever die. My life on this planet may end, but the next thing I know, I'll be somewhere else, wherever that is. Heaven, with its timelessness and endlessness and locationlessness and all of those weird things that we can't get our heads around. One day it will all make sense, when the bigger picture is in view. It's all so much to take in - the concept of life, the idea of love, the possibility of forever. It makes my head spin. One day we will understand all of it. But until then, we're all here together, and we might as well make the best of it.
I'm sure this blog post it confusing, and it may not make any sense. But what I guess I'm trying to say is, whatever you're going through right now, something good is going to come out of it. Bad things happen so good things can follow. Without bad things, good things really wouldn't exist. Everything you see right now is life, and it's enjoyable, if that's what you make it. Notice things. The blue sky, the different colors of people's eyes, the way it feels to laugh, how important your family and friends really are, the way it feels to take a breath and feel that heart beating inside of you. It'll all make sense soon. Maybe the last piece of the puzzle is right around the corner.